I was so excited to get a Kitchen-aid mixer from Nick's dad as a wedding present. Such a generous gift! All the different baking recipes I have immediately became 10x easier. Its such a great cherry red, looks amazing on our kitchen counter.
What would my 16-year-old self think of me now... Why are you so excited over a mixer?? Why are you wearing high-heels?? Where did you put the Chuck Taylors?? And where is your darn sketchbook??
In the past year, I went from Ann Fitzmaurice to Ann Scott, R.N. I shortened my name, and added a few extra letters. My name defines my life right now. Sometimes I think I have lost part of me. Wedding planning and starting a home and a family takes a lot out of you. Don't get me wrong, its been fun and I really enjoy married life and getting to see Nick daily and make our home ours. Even the challenges of integrating our family holiday traditions was (for the most part) fun.
Starting my nursing career has been challenging this past year. I have learned so much and still have so much more left to learn. I don't really feel like I have been able to focus on my career until now. And now I sort of want to switch careers - sort of (I'm interested more in becoming an ICU nurse than an acute care cardiac nurse).
The part of me I feel like I have lost? My name (used to be pretty unique, now its pretty generic - but so much more simple and easy to spell), maybe some independence (but it is nice to have someone to rely on), some of my creativity. That is what I miss the most - my creativity. I just don't give myself time for it. So, my goal - get it back! Start sketching, start making, maybe start painting.
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Well this is certainly the place to get your creativity back! I've found it so rewarding to post pictures of my projects because you get feedback and support. Plus an audience! Gotta love that :)
ReplyDeleteI feel the name thing, not that I got to simplify...but I feel like when you have a different sort of name, you identify w/ it and are sort of proud of the name and what it represents. And when you have family nearby or in similar professions it's nice to have name recognition. I'm used to giving my new name now, but I don't feel like I'll ever be ready to really 'give up' my old one.
ReplyDeleteThat being said, it's nice to be able to become a part of another family and have that new level of acceptance that comes with it. Now if I could only figure out what to call my inlaws...
Yea, the in-law label can be a little awkward. My parents like to be called "mom" and "dad" because they feel that they take in the newbie as one of their own. But I can see its weird to call someone else that. "Mr. and Mrs. ..." seems so formal and first name seems too informal.
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